Zen Girl

Centering into the journey.

Archive for the month “March, 2012”

The Sunshine Award-my first nomination!

Thank you so very much to MoJo of Momentum of Joy for thinking of me.  My first nomination ever!  If this doesn’t push me closer to the habit of writing more frequently, I don’t know what will.  She has been nominated for a slew of awards lately, and for good reason.  Check out her absolutely inspiring and open blog, and feel the light pour in!  http://momentumofjoy.wordpress.com/

Here are the rules!  (I guess they’re more like…guidelines)

1. Include the award logo in a post or in your blog.

2. Answer ten questions about yourself.

3. Nominate ten other fabulous bloggers.

4. Link your nominees to the post and comment on their blog, letting them know about the award.

5. Share the love and link the person who nominated you.

The Questions!

1. What is your favorite color?  Oh man, I have a challenging time picking favorites.  I’m going to go with a color scheme instead (I do what I want! Bahaha! Ahem.) and say purple, dark green and dark blue.

2. What is your favorite animal?  Sea Otter!  I don’t feel the need to justify myself here.  Seriously c’mon, just tell me this guy doesn’t bring a smile to your face.

3. What is your favorite non-alcoholic drink? Super pulp-heavy OJ.  Seriously, just mash up an orange and give it to me, I’d enjoy the hell out of it.

4. Do you prefer Facebook or Twitter?  I went on an anti-internet rampage a few months back, and deleted both from my life.  Though I have to say, If I had to have one back, it would be Facebook. I miss the stalkability.

5. What’s your passion?  Expanding my awareness.  Growing this brain thingy with more openness, love and wisdom.

6. What’s your favorite pattern?  Hmm I’ve never really thought about it.  Can spirals be a pattern?  I like spirals.

7. Do you prefer giving or getting presents?  Both, OBVEY.

8. What is your favorite number? Oh ummmm.  I really don’t have one.

9. Favorite day of the week?  Sunday.  Sunday vibes always seem to be relaxing, rejuvenating, celebratory, and full of morning fun like coffee and brunch and waking up slowly.  I love morning fun.

10. Favorite flower? Purple with white Daisys.  Simple, but I love them.  I never get tired of walking past them in my neighborhood.

Here are my picks for great inspirational, thought-provoking or downright hilarious blogs !











Thank you for doing what you do.

Darn you questions!

This morning I woke up thinking about a friend who I haven’t seen or talked to in at least half a year, though she lives just across the city.  I thought it strange that she pop into my head so suddenly, so I shoot her a text.  It simply said “You popped into my head this morning.  Hope you are doing great and having an awesome life.”    Her quick response was “Wow!  I have been thinking about you lately.  I would love to see you.”

Last night, one of my roommates and I were walking home from yoga class, giggling and blissed out.  She said, “I brought my bag because I was thinking about getting a drink at Livewire” (our neighborhood hole-in-the-wall).  “Oh yeah”, I said “I was thinking the same thing earlier.”  We get to the bar and summoned our third roommate to come down for an early-evening beverage.  Upon arriving he says “I’ve been thinking about this today and was planning on coming down here”.

Yesterday I worked with someone at my new job who is moving away.  I’ve known him for a mere three days, and will most likely never see him again.  I felt genuine pain for this person leaving.  I felt sadness in never having the opportunity of getting to know him.  These feelings caught me off guard.  Why would it be so that I even care this complete stranger is leaving?  And more than that, why would I feel a sadness in never having the chance to know him?

These three instances are rolling around in my brain (and clanking against the sides–I think it’s fairly empty in there this morning).  Does our connection as human beings, as Life, allow us to pick up on the thoughts of others?  Or is it that the thoughts are energy, and the energy is felt within us?   What is it about certain people that we feel?  A knowing of compatibility, a strong feeling of connection with a stranger? Or is it that we already know everything that was, is and will be?  Can anything BE though, or is it only BEING right now, as we create it?

Many times a day I think to myself about how an infinitely long chain of events had not happened exactly the way they did, I wouldn’t be here, in this exact moment.  The string of “If I hadn’ts” just go back and back. If I hadn’t had a hard childhood, when I wouldn’t have felt the need to escape to college, then I wouldn’t have met my friend Susan, then I wouldn’t have had someone to move away with because I wouldn’t have moved alone, then I wouldn’t have moved to Seattle, then I wouldn’t have felt the depression of constant cloudy weather, then I wouldn’t have felt the need to move to constant sunshine here in San Diego, then I wouldn’t have got the job where I met the friend who served in my emotional downfall and eventually led directly to the lesson that brought me to this spiritual journey.  And so it goes.  What if a relationship or job would have panned out in Seattle, and I stayed there?  Where would I be now?  And what is going on in my life now that seems not be working, but will simply be opportunities for something greater?  IS there an actual path that I am on?  DO these things all happen for a reason?  And if so, what happened to the ideas of the only truth being in this very moment, and that we create our own realities?  Often, one of my teachers will say something like “stay on your path”, or “this is your path”.  Yeah, but am I not creating my path freely in each moment?  Can there be a path, and only the present moment at the same time? Can there be a path, and our own creation of that path?

Thoughts?  I’m having one of those nagging existential questioney days 🙂


Update:  Or is it that we ARE on a path, and what happens, these chains, lead us (sometimes unknowingly) to exactly the point we need to be? But the path itself has been created by us, our desires, and where we want to go?

On the process of letting go–part 2.

One day, I took shrooms and became one with the universe.  Read more…

Spirituality Sucks

Have you ever noticed that all of your friends are an eerie reflection of how you see yourself?  Have you ever considered what a strange concept a bathroom scale is?  Have you ever had the incredible urge to drop your entire life, go off the grid and live the rest of your days cutting wood for heat and growing your own food?  Have you ever thought about suicide in a non-morbid way, but more as a true, genuine consideration of why not?  Have you ever tried to explain the concept of your Ego Self to someone and get accused of having Multiple Personality Disorder?

I have. Read more…

Back to Neutral.

We climb high to the snowiest peak, to reach the limits of what we seek. We search down below through the sea, down and down through the mystery. But we can’t live upon the snow, just as the water won’t let us grow.  We are in the middle and will always be, on land, in sand, returning neutrally. Our minds they grasp for something higher.  To the heavens we aspire.  But we all fall from the mountain.  We all rise up from the sea.  Highs and lows never stick so easily.  The excitement of happiness fades to a lull.  The stings of grief eventually dull.  We grasp and grasp for anything more, the hole is grows, our lives a chore. We think the answers are something to be found, something above or below, a treasure deep underground.  Or perhaps in the stars, it waits for us.  Waits to fix all who are lost. We grasp at those feelings, hope they stay, and we are left all alone when they go away.  Be okay with here, be okay with now, because we will always be set back on the ground.  Grasp at nothing, and accept it all.  This perfect existence has never left us at all.

We cannot stay with the birds in flight, we cannot stay with the fish at night.  Let us return to the animal that we are. Let us return to pure love and light.



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