A mesage to myself (and in turn, to you).

Who are you going to become?  You always, always want to be doing something more worthwhile, more important, more. You always wonder whether you are on the right path, not  remembering that you will this very questioning is a part of you, the feeling of waiting for  something more. If only I had this, THEN I will be trully fulfilled. This will happen time and again; it is a part of who you are, as part of the human race. This is what makes the story continue…Accept this as an innate feature in you to keep on going, to keep pushing and striving and learning and growing.  BUT ALSO, be okay with now and really see what’s going on here.  ACCEPT.  Everyone is this.

Stay present, aware and focused.  The way to get things done, to accomplish, is to be focused in your tasks.  And you cannot be focused in your task if you are bogged down in mind muck, the ifs and whys and am-I-on-the-right-paths. Once you are focused and aware, you will no longer have the urge to ponder the value or point of what you are doing–you will do becaue you love.  You will love to do. You will have to, because your mind will no longer be there to distract you.  Don’t do for the future.  Do for now.  The future will love you for it. Keep it simple.  Settle into yourself, you are just now learning. Meditate, see more and more of the karmic connection, understand the cause and effect.  You are, right at this very moment, living in effects and creating causes.  Be aware enough to combat the thoughts and actions that cause yourself and others suffering. Every little cause; action, thought, word.  To improve yourself all you need to do is understand that you are perfect right now.  Treat yourself and all other life with loving kindness right now.  Because all other life is you.  This builds the confidence which dissintigrates the fear which allows you to finally go forth and accomplish.  Love smashes fear.  So know it and believe it now:  YOU ARE ALREADY PERFECT.

Go forth, be aware and conquer.

Morning birds.

Birds have so much to say in the morning.  I’m not quite sure what they are doing.  Gathered in the trees.  Finding breakfast? Caring for their young?  Or is it simply how they wake up, with lot’s of celebration and song?  This is how we should all wake up–with life, with excitement, conducting the preparations that make us happy and centered for the remaining hours of the day.  Maybe the birds are just for us, to remind us of the beauty of sunrise, and the life–big and small– that’s contained within it.  To remind us that we are not the only ones on this earth that shares this consciousness, that shares life. That these tiny creatures of flight share the pain of suffering and the joy of song.

A choice.

This is absolutely a choice.  It’s not going to be easy, and it’s not going to be hard.  It can rip your life apart, but you have to make the conscious decision on how far you want to go.  How far down the rabbit hole do you want to fall?  There is no end to the falling, and you can stop anytime. 

The red pill.

This was typed about 3 weeks ago, when this all started for me.  It’s changed my life, and I look forward to writing more about the expansions of my mind as they happen, and relating the new beauty I see in the world (though it’s always been there).

I have no more reason to write this than the fact that I’m itching to. Like a hot, irritating itch. I woke up. I took the red pill, and quite recently. It’s changed my life, sooo that’s pretty cool.

I’ve never believed in God. Not fully.